I heard the above quote as part of the message at church last Sunday. I am amazed at how I keep seeing and hearing quotes, phrases, verses, songs and more that just seem so relevant to my life at the moment; the issues I am struggling with and the progress I am trying to make.
I have always been one of those people who gets highly affected by things. This is what lead to my emotional break-down 7 years ago and what contributes to the trouble I still have with anxiety, low self-esteem and insecurities. There has been a lot of horrible and really tough stuff that has happened to me in my life, so in a lot of ways I have every reason to let my past dictate and influence my future… and I have let it for many, many years.
There is a time of change that I have been going through for the last 6 months or so. A season in my life where I actually feel I am starting to be able to address deep, underlying issues from my past, things I have held on to, almost like badges marking the hurt I have suffered – as if to say “see, look what I have lived through. Look what I have had to endure”. Why? I don’t know. Maybe that’s what I thought I was supposed to do? Maybe I didn’t realise there was another way, but there is.
The past happened, I can’t change it, but I can move on from it. I can choose to leave that emotional baggage behind. I can choose to take off the pain-stained glasses that taint the way I view life. Of course it’s not an easy thing to do, nor is it something that will be fixed overnight. But now I know I have a choice in how I respond to things that happen in my life. I do have the option to let the hurt go, to move on… and that’s what I aim to do!